Well I practiced patience today, no word from my ex on our possible recommitment conversation. And I have remained distant and quiet, which is an unusual state for me in a crisis of sorts. I am a quick repair artist in heartache, you know the type oh baby wait we can fix this in a second or baby it is not you it is just life and all the pressures .. etc. All denial tactics maybe? So now I will practice what I have learned over the years but never used. See if just using a peaceful mind and a heart full of love will help me come to some understanding for once, instead of going off like a woman with buckshot in her booty! Life is complex, but you know love is even more so ...