Happy New Year everyone! I am away traveling so I will resume my Blog in a regular manner upon my return. I wish you each love, success and prosperity in your life. Our lives are so short and fleeting please make the most of it. If you find love do all you can to keep it close to you. If you find your soul mate never let go. Love that person as best you can. True love of family, friends and love of heart is so brief. I wish for you an amazing year filled of wonder and awe ... And if you are lucky enough the grace of God or your higher power will touch your heart .. and move your life in a positive direction .. See it, feel it and enjoy it! Happy New Year all and may the grace of God guide you into the new year..Bisous mon ami

He called today to wish me a Merry Christmas .. The moment I heard his voice I began to perspire, my hands anyway. My mind went to all the warm and fuzzy places the holidays takes it to. Why when two people were so perfect for one another did it crash and burn? The links of life are so strong, so why is it so easily broken? Am I the only one left on this planet that still believes in love, fidelity and integrity? And thought Julia Childs was amazing? I can't tell you how many times I have watched that movie.People just can't be so egotistical and selfish in life, or are they? You give them unconditional love and you are made to look needy, what a stupid thought that is! You know exactly what you are doing for this person as you give of yourself so how can that be broken down to be needy? Most men would not know love if it came and sit down on their laps, they would probably ask, "What'd you want?" It's been eight months so why can't I forget. I go about my life as normal, but the moment I hear from here I go back to before we broke up. Geez I need some wine.

When we love we forget how brief life is. It makes use feel as if the feeling will last forever. For some it does, however for most in our day and age it does not. Love is more fleeting than life. I believed him and my heart sat on each word off his beautiful lips. It scares me that people can lie so easily in the name of love. Each time a heart breaks so does the spirit. Once you break the spirit in a life, the light in their eyes dims as well. And people ask, "Where is love?" Love is something we must care for and nurture always, the same as our bodies.

Bonjour my lovelies. My travels have kept me busy and off my Blog. I do apologize, however business takes so much time from real life. I have not been happy with the way my Blog has begun, therefore I have spent time with my Editor and mentors. So if you can just hang in there with me I will have it all back on track this week.Thanksgiving is upon us and all of us will be very busy with our socializing and families. So on that note I will wish you each a marvelous holiday and take time to feel grateful. After all, our time here is so short we must make the best of it!
Happy Thanksgiving!! Bisous

Out of town

Please accept my apologies for not blogging. I am currently out of the country. Be home soon..

It is raining and cool and a sudden chill runs over my body. Why can't I shake this ill feeling I have? Something just didn't feel right tonight. Things seems to be going well, so why am I feeling so pessimistic? Why can't just once in my life can I be happy and have things feel good? Okay inner feeling I will exam things further tomorrow. Right now I want to enjoy my wine and a warm bath. Oops I almost forgot to light the candles. I have the strangest dream last night, what could it mean ..

Ripples

When did things change and feelings become uneasy? How does life become so idyllic and move to possible deception so quickly. We met in an usual manner, this I know, however it all seemed so meshed in our thoughts and mannerisms. We became so close and trusting over time. I was so careful for I had been warned so much about Internet dating. Yes I said, "Internet Dating" .. the world of lies, scams, spyware and malaware. Gotta love it right, well I do understand all your worries, but I am good at being careful and choosing carefully. I will never let anything stupid like that happen to me, no matter what all say. I am smart and careful at all times. Eric is good and honest man and we have been talking for over one year, writing, emailing, sending packages and phone calls. He is a good Christian man with children. Hard working and supporting his family as well as his Mom. I am fine ...

These moments

How could I allow my past experiences to cripple this love from this terribly wonderful handsome man, I have been given such a gracious chance to meet? I am at this moment drinking wine (my fav) and listening to Andrea Bocelli from this absolutely amazing tenor,I hope you are willing to open up your mind along with your heart and broaden the chance to learn to enjoy new things that I love so much in this world God has blessed us with, at this moment I feel as a little girl riding the carousel of life and as I pass I see you standing near by with your hand out as I move by on the Merry-Go-Round I look back at you, you are smiling this wonderful handsome strong smile,as if to say to me, "Solaire grab my hand, grab my hand!" as the carousel goes around. I lean over as I approach you, and you grab my hand and jump aboard and hold me. At that very moment my life was sealed, sealed with you my love, my lover, my friend and well only you know the rest?

The Letter

In the presence of beautiful moving music in my (our) bedroom I have reread your truly wonderful heart felt magnificent love letter to me, written in the quiet of the wee hours of the morning on the borrowed laptop your friend brought to you to use to write to me. How wonderfully beautiful it was as I read it once again without questionable or confused feelings of distrust. Actually, I reread "our" whole conversation on Yahoo and I was able to see and feel as we, as a couple stumbled through all the bad feelings and what brought us through it all, of course "our" love for one another. For the first time Eric my Prince I feel so much love and peace when I think of you and my heart is also thinking of your children and wanting so desperately to earn their trust and love as only a "step-in" not a replacement for their beloved Mother, although my heart will always be open for such acceptance if they ever wish it so.

HOW DO I DEFINE LOVE?

I was recently asked by a friend of mine, "How do you define love?" Well, having just recently lost someone who was extrememly important in my life, that is a hard question to answer in an exact form ... For me love is defined in many different ways, for there are all kinds of love ... I feel it is an emotion that changes with each person we meet ... The depths and circumstances of each meeting is never the same ... The heart experiences a variety of emotions created by each unique individual that comes into our lives ... However, true chemistry love is fleeting and we only have it rarely in our lives ... So, if you ever experience it; do not lose it!! And if you have been lucky enough to find it twice, well it is a "gift" and be smart enough to see this fact ... Grab onto it as if it is the "Brass Ring" in life ... We can each just be so lucky, then we will recieve mediocre love ... out of life!! The heart and soul of each of us are very emotional, yet intellectual components, and once we learn to read our feelings more precisely our lives will be more enhanced ... Throw away the box that life and society put us in; and follow your instincts ... listen to your heart and soul and not the voices of others in life ... dance to your own tune (song), live your predestined life and experience the gifts from the universe and God ... You see I feel that when we meet another and we experience that amazing "connection" together, it is like an "addiction" something worth fighting for ... I also believe that life and God only give us so many chances to get it right ... As for me I do not want to wake up one morning and remember all the things I could of had or enjoyed and remember the feelings and life I could of lived, if I had not listened to the wrong messages from life or others I trusted to share with ... We all have a tendency to try to make everything clear and acceptable, but in reality all we are doing is trying to make it fit in the box that others will find acceptable ... For me life has to have passion, and a special chemistry and the other person is able to make me feel that passion, that "addiction" to one another always from anywhere, such as; a phone call, a text, a letter, a song, words said to me, in a voice .... You see it is an "undefined" emotion inside of me, that only that perfect connection can create in my heart and soul ... I will never surrender to less for me ... I am an individual with special needs created for my own being ... So my response to my friend is, "Love for me is undefined, it has many definitions" but the most unique for me is the "connection" that was God's gift to me; and whomever shares it with me as well ...

And so it begins ...

I want to thank all of you for your patience during the growth and development of this Blog. It has been a continuing process in design, preparation and a coupling in research. We live in a world of constant amazement to me; and yet it is full of cruelty matched by desires. Please if you like reading my blog add yourselves to my "followers" list and feel free to write me of your comments. See you soon ..

Not Again!!

Hello everyone,
Once again as I get to create this Blog, the darn site had to go down for a few days for patent rights .. well they are back and running but guess what?? My Blog skin did not return, thus bringing things to a screeching halt!! Next time you begin a very large project and you disagree with the professionals; don't!!! hahaa .. this is the results .. many delays and having to depend on others for help. So all done soon and then you will meet my cast of characters and story line. Thank you for all your patience. Bisous

Hello everyone,
I am sorry but I am experiencing web design problem with the Internet. I will begin soon. Oh if anything creating this Blog has been a challenge in persistence, but with a lot of patience!! haha .. It seems some of the people I am working decided to take their site down last night for maintenance and revamping of their own. I hope everyone is having a marvelous week. I am working from an exciting place with entertaining people ad staff. Crack a bottle of Champagne for me ... Thank you all and see you soon.

Well everyone the Blog design will finish soon then I will begin sharing my book with you ..I hope all is well and love is abound in this sometimes scary and dark world we live in .. So until I see you all one again, kisses n love for all ...

I think of you in my moments of travel, and I wonder if that is my heart feeling you so near to me ... As I go to all the places we had planned to go see together ... Maybe not, could it just be my spirit drifting where my heart wishes to be ... Oh but I forgot you are not the man I thought you to be. When did you change, and why?

Moving before Blog skin ..

Well as crazy as it seems, I have been trying with the assistance of 4 people to get my Blog skin applied before moving on, however I am so far behind my deadline that I say be damned with it!! I will not give up on personalizing my Blog to reflect whom I am, I will just proceed until that fete is accomplished. So I will begin our journey into the lives of others before us. We are living in a world where people reach out to one another in the name of love and promises, only to use and abuse and leave when "they" have all they need ... protesting in the name of love. Life in the real or the Internet has become a frightening place. I will introduce you to some whom have experienced these situations in their lives. Life is an amazing thing as long as we percieve it and use it for the good. Our world is so polluted already, I mean do we need more? What better place to win the battle then the human heart and spirit ..

In flight ..

Hello everyone .. well we are still in the processes of preparing this Blog and it's appearance .. My Mom use to say, "Anything worth having, it worth waiting for" hahaa ... So I promise to be up and going very soon ... I sincerely thank you for your patience ... The one thing that keeps me sane, is the "dream" ... coming soon at your Blog link ... hahaa ... kisses

Patience please ..

The site is under restructuring at the moment .. hope to be up and running soon ... Thank you, Alexi Brial

Is this skin finally on??

I know me a woman, asking such things as, "why isn't this darn blog skin applying?" Such a life is knowledge ... :)